June 18, 2008

• so, i have no job as of august 25th.  my boss, code name flamingo, said they did not have the money to keep me part-time and hire my replacement.

  i'm pretty mixed about the decision, which i can best describe in one word: shortsighted.  however, i only have my side of the vision on this, so i'm just going to let that one go.

  part of me feels very sad to leave my favorite coworkers, who i adore, and even the ones who are odd, as they give me entertainment and plenty of fuel for my internal scorn furnace.  i'm nervous to leave the stability of being at the same place, in a job i know and have seniority, where i have spent the last four years.  i loathe the idea of looking for a new job, a part-time job, and trying to navigate this.  i'm excited about the idea of new possibilities, and being able to focus more on my education.

  i'm one of those people who really actually wants to learn, and be a really good educator.  i hope that can happen. 

  emerson said "we are always getting ready to live, but never living."

  that's the best way to sum up a little how i feel.  nothing like god shaking your whole world up like a snow globe that pushes you out of your mind.  figuratively, and literally.

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