July 21, 2008
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"pacific before tiger." --- life of pi.
when i think about the amount of things that i want/need/must accomplish in the next month/season/year, i can get overwhelmed to the point of paralysis. some things feel so daunting that i feel immobile, which only perpetuates the issue more. on some level i know things will get done, i will conquer, pieces will fall into place.
this is ground level.
but my elevator shoots up awfully high at times, i get anxious watching all the numbers light up so rapidly. it affects many things in life, mostly my ability to not just crawl in bed the moment i get home from being so tired. i don't sleep well right now.
so sometimes, i just decide to focus on one thing at a time. at this point, it's work. i'm not going to feel horrific and lazy if i just don't get much done during the evenings this last month at work. i am going to choose little, conquerable things to accomplish, and just keep moving ahead. conquer one thing at a time, and stop looking around in guilt at the things you feel you should have accomplished. bask in the acceptance of the ones who love and accept you, and know that your motor is not completely stalled, but just nearly to port.
the pacific. then the tiger. chin up.
Comments (1)
man, i know exactly how you feel. every day i think of something else that needs to be done to my house, car, life...in preperation for the baby or whatever. but it never fails that by the time i get home from work i'm entirely too tired to do any of it. i'm trying to learn how to have motivation but not to punish myself when my body is simply too tired to do something. its hard for sure. also, will the boy have moved closer by the time we're in denver? would love to meet him.
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